Heartbreak is something I have been dealing with for years. Letting go has been the biggest challenge. I have tried many things to move forward from my past. My first love. I decided to try an express my feelings through art. I was nervous to even try. I was afraid that it was what I was going to create was not going to look good. But I decided that that didn't matter. I wanted to try and move on and I had to just get over possibly failing and just do it.
It felt liberating to create and just pour my emotions into it. I felt like I was finally addressing what was going inside. I didn't care what anyone thought about my art. The fears and thoughts of, "Does this look right? Is this even art?" vanished. I just wanted to draw it out. I continued to reflect on the good and the bad from my breakup and captured it the best way I knew how.
I took a break after I create a handful of pieces. I wasn't sure if I wanted to share them with anyone. But I felt like someone might want to see them. Someone might resinate with what I have been feeling too. Maybe I needed to share them. I debated with the idea of putting them into a collection to be viewed and wondered what would be the best way to do it. I started collecting different elements to include in the project.
After completing the project I wondered what if the one who broke my heart saw everything I created. In my heart, I don't want him to feel guilty. I don't want him to feel sadden by it all. I know that the breakup effected us both. Because it's a breakup, after all. I want him to know I have forgiven him. He is a kind person and someone I have been happy to have met and dated. The pieces I created...I can't help but feel the way I felt from it all...I decided to share the project. My feelings from the effects of my broken heart. I wanted others to know that it's okay not to be okay.
So that made me decide to invite others to submit their own creations from the effects of heartbreak. Heartbreak that was not only caused by broken relationships, but of all different kinds. To be an expansion of what I created. I want to encourage others to create art in ways to heal from heartbreak they might be going through. I don't know if anyone really will...but I hope that they know that there is someone out there who will listen and they are not alone.
Thank you to those who have been encouraging and for listening when I needed to talk to someone. It means a lot. Thank you Ben, for being understanding and loving me for who I am with all my flaws. Thank you Lord for always being never changing and loving me unconditionally.
This post is a lot longer than I wanted it to be, but there you have it. You can view SIDE EFFECTS: loss of appetite and excessive tears HERE.
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I am an artist who enjoys the outdoors and living in Michigan where I can live in all four seasons in one day. I love cake or anything that is sweet!