Devotional on heartbreak is finished

I am happy to say that my devotional is completed. It has been interesting and a challenge to write this devo. First the images had to fit what I wanted to talk about. that was the easy part. But what made this devo such a challenge is that I'm still going through heartache. Maybe you are asking yourself, "How can you even write a devotional if you are not healed yourself?"

That is a good question. I even asked myself that question. I prayed about it if it's something that God wanted me to do. When I got the assignment the idea of creating a devotional popped in my head. And then instantly thought to make broken hearts the topic. I felt okay with writing it because I thought I was in a good spot emotionally.

Things started to come together. I felt like each page fitted all together and my outlines for each page seemed to be writing itself. The thoughts just came to me. I felt like I had a strong outline to start writing. I started to create the images. The first was the cover with a pair of hands (God's) holding a broken heart. I felt at peace when I just stopped and studied at what I was creating. I really felt that God was holding my heart and taking care of me.

I was doing well with creating the images. But when it came to write the devo. I felt like I couldn't write it. I wrote out one entry and it was just crap. haha I mean, it just didn't sound right and I didn't really make any sense. I felt like I was struggling. I remember praying to God if this is something you really want me to do.

There was some days I couldn't focus because I would just start thinking about my past relationship that I have yet to get over...I felt like, "How can I even write this devotional??!!" I was just so upset.

But don't worry. Let me finish. After a couple of weeks just spending my time working on the illustrations and spending time with friends, I think I was ready to write. As I was writing each entry it was like I was reminding myself of God's promises. God's love is enough, he will never leave me, he is providing for me, he knows my needs, he has placed encouraging people in my life, he made me beautiful, its God's plan not my plan, God is in control, and so much more.

Though I still am recovering...and I have my moments of sadness I know that I have hope. I know that God will pull me through this. And I'm reminded of this through his Word and the friends that are helping me through this. There is more I want to say but this blog will be super long...so I'm going to just leave it at that. Thank you for reading.

I hope to figure out how I can save the book as a PDF so I can put it here to download. Because Adobe InDesign is getting on my last nerves...I hate that stupid program. haha

But you can view my selected illustrations from my devotional here.

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